Her Happy Rants

i kept asking is it my fault or your fault? im in dillema in letting the feelings away --walking away from you it is such a difficult thing ive ever going thru in my whole life despite of everything happened & everything ive done in thought of you'll appreciate me sadly i was wrong my fault. for letting my feelings went over you. i shouldnt do that. i shouldnt. im keeping my feelings inside --the pieces -- the broken --- the me it's okay im okay now even youre still appearing but im okay and better even im no longing let the feelings cuddling me wrapping me like they used to be. i let you go. i am.

lil boy, lil did you know you'd change into the one that i hate the most? lil boy, i do adore how you cared and loved your family rather than your soul but the adore-tion becomes hatred when you turn your soul into black side lil boy, remember -- that sometimes a 'title' could change you becomes that someone you did not want to be lil boy, if i could tick back the clock to the time where all of us sharing joys and tears together -- i really want to do that lil boy, did you already forget that the black heart who you owned now once a pure heart that bonding all of us together? lil boy, we do miss how we shared the laughes & tears together eventho our hearts were crashing at that moment. lil boy, did you forget our friendships? lil boy, did you forget this -- second family? lil boy, hope your black soul that surrounded you now would die in 2 secs -- so that we can share the moments we had created together back. lil boy, we do miss the old y

And I am me. Funny how things have changed. It is even funnier when the person you hate the most, now, becoming otherwise. You are literally addicted to them. I am literally addicted to him, to you. The hesitation. The thinking. The sudden stop before answering. The trying-not-to-smile. The concentration. The hypercritical. The objective. The resistant. The talk. The smart. The you. Only if saying I am falling for you is easy. And only if you have the same feeling. And only if this is possible. Because, I am almost certain it is not, you are not. I don't know which is weirder. Me, fall for you. Or you, can't feel me already fall for you. Yeah, I like you. I just pretend I don't.

if u asking me what is my wish, i would answer is to love ppl tht i left bcs of my own ego. i mean, its not just loving em back, having em around, make em smile, and all of that heh i know i cant do that but all of i know is i know tht i love them but my ego said no. i dont have an idea wht im talking abt it just im missing em. im not missing em to be around me but their ways to make me smile when they knew i was down. i lost my words, macam biasa, raihan kan.haha. haa haa my monsters were killed (final papersss) just overnight in shah alam, just a night then we'll going back to kedah tomorrow morning, may Allah ease my way. ive done a checklist for this holiday i hope it's not going to happen like before, hehehe. chiao.

Idk maybe i was the one who should be blame for making this thing happened but weih, i just need all of us stay like before seriously, i miss you both it's really dang when this thing happened ppl keep watching our step, our act and ppl already smelled the fishy bcs it's real tuhan, apa sekali lagi ada perpisahan? **shed tears**

Smiling Is Infectious Author Unknown Smiling is infectious, you catch it like the flu, When someone smiled at me today, I started smiling too. I passed around the corner and someone saw my grin. When he smiled I realized I'd passed it on to him.  I thought about that smile, then I realized its worth. A single smile, just like mine could travel round the earth.  So, if you feel a smile begin, don't leave it undetected. Let's start an epidemic quick, and get the world infected! --- I made a mistake. A mistake. A mistake. It affected me the whole day. The whole day. The whole day. I've tried to forget, and I failed and I stressed. I put all the effort so I wont waste, the time precious time, that I had. Please make it be 'past tense' in the shortime, please, Ooo Allah.  Da di du dada di duu. Yesterday was bad (I would use present continuous tense if 'yesterday' could go with it, only if)