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Dear soul, stop stalking.Idk why though I said I'll buried 'em down but deeply I'm missing 'em badly.How bad they're treating me, still I'm waiting for 'em to come back though I know they'll keep hurting me, thats how love supposed to be (?)

I ditch 4 people throughout this hectic year .

first, that guy.
no, it wasn't my fault after all, I want to takecare of my heart too.I cant keep longing seeing my heart broken into pieces, it hurts.Really :( Yknow, when you loved someone for 5 yrs and suddenly they're gone, how do you feel? I know it's the best decision i'd made though it hurts me somehow and I know it did hurted him too but that's only decision I can made and that's the only way to stop hurting him.I'm really sorry.Allah,forgive me :(

second, my-ex listener
it was my fault too, taking the bad decision to cut-off our friendship but it hurts me well.when one promised tht she's not gonna spill-out yr probs to others but she did it, how do you feel? do you still wanna keep her beside? i dont know.it hurts me, really.She told everyone tht I knew abt wht I poured to her just to clear-up away my probs and for her info, it didnt.again, im sorry :(

third, lonewolf
it was his fault, not mine. im not going into him, and susah ke nak faham.hadoimak. ke aku je syok sendiri (?) tapi the way he gave reason why he wanted to keep me bside tak logik, tikus pun kekek je gelak kalau dengar hadoilah. somehow, anyway, whatever it is, still, im sorry :(

fourth, anak menakan
I tried to clear up things between both of you tapi it's true tht we only can lend our shoulder to one, not clear-up things for 'em.I knew I ruined everything. but, it hurts me too seeing you crushing alone,breaking alone.Sorry for not staying and lending you my shoulder when you need someone to talk to :(

see, im not a good friend after-all.
Ya Allah, forgive me on hurting people so badly.Bless 'em ya Allah. :(

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